Saturday, April 28, 2012
Disturbed
I'm a big believer that dreams are messages or communication from the "other side" or even something about yourself deep down that you didn't know or realize.
The latter of the explanations I think are true to this re-occurring dream I have from time to time.
It's based in a huge mansion.. there are nothing but bedrooms everywhere. Every bedroom has a bed and is equipped for a guest at any time. I'm never alone in the house, there are people visible some talk to me some don't I seem to know these people but not in this world.
The house is so damn huge I end up having to walk someone around and show them how to get from one room to another. There is at least 2 floors to this house. The stairway to the second floor is a grand staircase, it's wide enough for 4 people to walk up together standing next to each other, and it seems to curve to the right once you get onto the landing. When I get to the landing there isn't a left, well if there is, I've never looked in that direction. I notice that there are boxes stacked on the landing one after another. But it doesn't feel cluttered to me. The landing curves to the right and its like a huge hallway. I know there are rooms on the second floor, but I've never visited them. This is the part of the dream that takes an odd turn.
I always walk up the stairway and get to the landing, but I NEVER go any further than that. I feel there is something evil up there. I so badly want to see what's up there, but I can never get myself any further than the boxes.
The last time I had this dream was about a month and a 1/2 ago. I think about it all the time and I want to go back in the dream and make myself walk past the boxes. When I lay down at night I think about that mansion hoping that I will dream about it again.
Last night while trying to drown out Chris' snoring, I was thinking about why I'm not able to get back into that dream. And I think maybe I figured it out.. well maybe. I do take an anti anxiety pill everyday, but when I found out I was pregnant with our 3rd baby in January, I stopped taking the pill.
And I believe that's when I was having that specific dream. I've since lost that pregnancy to miscarriage and I've started taking my "crazy pill" again. And now I'm not having the dream.
I wonder if the dream or the evil room upstairs has anything to do with my feelings or attitude when I wasn't taking the pill. I can't remember for the life of me, if I had the dream before I stopped taking the pill.
I'm afraid that maybe I'm the Evil force upstairs.
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house and buildings almost always are indicative of life as a whole with each room symbolizing a different life-aspect. for instance, kitchens represent your social side, particularly as it has to do with family and close friends. living rooms are more social in the sense that they harbor attitudes toward the outside world (this is the room we share with everyone, even strangers that stop by), while the bedroom is about things of an intimate nature, bathrooms are usually very symbolic of emotional states (becuz water is highly symbolic of emotions). different levels of a building in a dream are usually about levels of consciousness. basements are "going deep" to the more repressed stuff, while upper levels are usually indicative of a rise in consciousness. you are going up a level, but something is there that is not comfortable for you (you have literal "packed it away"...hence, the boxes). i take anxiety meds, too. their job is to help block the bad stuff, or the uncomfortable stuff. it doesn't surprise me that you were having this dream while off your meds. if you are able to have it again, I would encourage you to look through the boxes before moving past them.
ReplyDeleteInteresting. I was going to ask you if I should look thru the boxes or go right toward the evil feeling. I'm not afraid to have the dream again, I think I want it too much. Thanks for the insight as usual :)
ReplyDeleteI've never thought about houses/rooms they were just explained. I often wonder what my dreams mean and why...why do I keep having the same one over and over. Like you Ellen, there are places I want to get back to but I can't seem to find it. The night you don't think about the mansion, you will dream about it...or at least that is what I believe.
ReplyDeleteGreat insight to dreams!! I'm ready to dream now!!
I've gotta say aubree your pretty special. Everytime I read something from you it blows me away... Good luck with your dream Ellen :) Xo
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