Moving... out of my comfort zone

Recently, Chris was offered a new job 3 hours south of where we live now.
After A LOT of thought, we've decided to uproot and move to Palm Bay.

I am starting to FREAK OUT!!

I was born in New Jersey, but moved here when I was 1 year old.  We lived in the same house until my dad died.  I've lived in the same town my whole life (well since I was one.)

I'm not afraid of change, I actually like change.  I'm a Gemini , so I'm pretty fickle.

But, moving away from my close friends, my sister and my nieces is going to be really hard for me.

What is really getting to me is, moving to a whole new town where I have no idea where I am.

I seriously get lost at the flea market!  I have a horrible sense of direction.

Thank god for GPS!

I'm also very excited to start fresh where no one knows me.  Not that I will re-invent myself, cause I love my smart ass attitude.  But the idea is fun.


Luckily I have a really good friend who we will be staying with for a bit, until we can find our own place.
So I will know one person there.  That helps with my anxiety a little.


We will also be very, very close the the beach.  I've always wanted to live close the the ocean.  Except during hurricane season.  Which we are right in the middle of now.

So, for the next 2 weeks, I will be packing, packing, packing.  And those of you who know me, you know that's one of my favorite things to do.  :)

Thanks for reading
xoxo

Emilie's shopping trip

Today Emilie and her Dad went to Walmart so she can spend her $7 she earned and saved.

I decided to send Chris to the store with her because he loves to shop himself.

They were gone for about 2 hours.  When they finally returned home, I got a recap of their shopping trip.

Chris:  Ellen, you're going shopping with her next time.
Me:      He He, what happened?
Chris:  She took FOREVER to decide what she wanted.
Me:      That's why I thought it was a great idea that she went with you.



Emilie came bouncing in the house in the greatest mood I've seen her in a long time.

She then shows me what she bought with her own money.

Blue pens for school (that we just found out that she needed. She wanted to buy them herself.)
Poster of "Shake it Up" (her favorite show)
Pink sports bottle cup for herself 
Blue sports bottle cup for her brother


I love that she thinks of her brother.  And, he was super excited that Sissy bought him a present.

She may act like a turd most of the time, but she is very sweet deep down.

Chris also, had to buy some groceries while they were at the store.  Emilie wanted a cucumber, Chris agreed and put into the cart.  Emilie asked him if she could buy it with her own money so she didn't have to share it.
Yah, that was a big fat NO from Daddy.. ha ha.

All in all, I'm happy Emilie got to spend some quality time with her Dad.  But even more, I'm glad I didn't have to go and walk around Walmart for 2 hours until she finally made a decision.


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xoxo

Artsy Fartsy

Sometimes, I can be quite crafty.. I will think of ideas on how to reuse things.

I had an idea to reuse my citronella candle holders that I had bought at Walmart a few months back.

After burning all 4 candles, I cleaned out the extra wax and punched holes in the bottom for drainage.

I then planted flowers/plants in each one and hung from my deck with fishing line and nails

Check it out!!

I had forgotten to put on the "Real Me" list I posted earlier this week, that I like to try to garden.
And, I've recently learned how to use a sewing machine.  Me and my friend Kyley made a quilt for my son Andrew.

Most of the fabric used for this quilt are his old receiving blankets.  Pretty huh?  It fits his toddler bed perfect too.

I don't know if you want to call it artsy or crafty.. but I chose artsy for the title cause I really wanted to put the word fart in there somewhere.  That's my inner child coming out..

Since I've become a stay at home mom, I've found myself quite bored.  Not only do I try to sew and garden, I also coupon.  Me and a couple friends even tried to start a business teaching people how to coupon and we made and sold our own coupon binders.  It didn't work out very well for 2 reasons, one of the three of us moved out of the area and second, it took up too much of our time.  We didn't get to coupon shop very much ourselves. I stopped couponing for about a year and depleted my whole stock pile. Now, that I actually have to buy laundry soap, shampoo, razors and tons of other things I didn't have to buy for over a year, I started couponing again.  Nothing better than saving money, actually yes there is.  It feels amazing walking out of the store paying pennies for something that cost a few dollars!!!

This used to be my stock pile of laundry soap!

These were all FREE.. didn't pay one red cent!

Finally, this is what I got from combining store coupons with manufactuer coupons

My total for all of these were $2.17!

Okay done bragging about my saving skills..

Thanks for reading

xoxo

The real me

I was sitting out on the deck smoking a cigarette and I was thinking about who I am. Why? I have no idea, why I think the shit I do.

But, it led me to the fact that many people who read this blog do not know who I am.
And to those who do know me, you can verify that I am everything I say I am.

1.  I like to think of myself as a optimist.  
     I'm only truly an optimist, when it comes to giving other people advice or pep-talks. I hardly ever take my own advice. I always expect the worst for myself.


2.  I can tune just about anything out.
    I really can tune anything out, except fighting and screaming kids. I used to not be able to tune anything out, but I have to thank my Lexapro for giving me that new found gift.

 

3.  I think all the time.
     This is very true, it seems like my mind never stops.  I don't believe my thoughts to be anything
     important or life changing.  But, I can sit in front of a blaring T.V. and not know what is going on.
    It's like I don't see the T.V at all.   This fact, pisses Chris off to no end.
  

 CHRIS:      "Ellen, did you just see that?"
 ME:            "See what?" 
CHRIS:      "What the hell are you doing? You're looking at the T.V 
                     aren't you watching it?"  
ME:            "Nah, I wasn't paying attention."
CHRIS:      "I don't understand you sometimes."
ME:             "Yah, no shit!"


4.  I love to read.
    I do love to read, but true fact. I hated to read before and I hate to admit this, but here it goes.
    The damn "Twilight" books started my love of reading now. I'm addicted, I don't know why I never
    read before.  Since I've read the Twilight books in 2009, I've been reading non stop.

5.  I love to write.
   I wrote a lot as a teenager, but never let anyone read anything. I've always kept a journal, but I never
   wrote anything incriminating in it.

6.  Independent
     I have always been independent.  My parents stop buying me school clothes when I was sixteen.
    Not because they were mean, but I had a job and I wanted to buy them myself.
    I've worked since I was sixteen, my first job was at Burger King.  I worked there for four years.
    I quit my job in 2009 to stay home with our new son.  After that, I feel like I've lost my
    independence. (financially)




7.   Gossip
      It's true, I love to gossip.  But, if someone states "DO NOT TELL ANYONE."  Then I won't.
      It kills me inside, but I do keep the secret.  (So remember that line just in case)

8.   Secretive
      NOPE.. not me!! I will tell anyone anything about myself.  You just have to ask. Well, sometimes you don't even have to ask, I will blurt shit out for no reason at all.
   

9.  Morning coffee
     I put way too much creamer and sugar in it.  I hate the taste of coffee.

10. Marriage
     Doubt I will ever get married.  Nothing against Chris or marriage itself.  I feel like I'm too old now,
     and what's the point?  And, no I've never been married.

11. Sense of humor
      My sense of humor has been described by my friends as dry.  I'm really not sure what that means.
      I feel like my sense of humor is juicy and real!  I will say just about anything.  I used to care about
     embarrassing myself, but not so much anymore.  I try to associate with people with the same humor
     as myself.  People who are truly funny, and will tell it like it is.

12. Sensitivity 
      That is a touchy subject for me.  I am not a sensitive person. I'm not saying my feelings never get hurt.
      They do, but not very often.  I don't know if that means I have "thick skin" or I just don't give a shit.
      Either option is okay with me.  I really don't understand people who get their feelings hurt so
      easily.  Unfortunately, if someone's feelings are hurt around me, is because I did it. (by accident)
      What's the saying?  If you don't want to know the truth, don't ask ME!!!!

13.  Fighting Fair
       Yah, that's a big HELL NO!  As soon as Chris flings the Bitch word at me, there's no holding me
       back.


14.  Same sex relationships/marriage
       I agree with any relationship or marriage.  If two people love each other, who's to say it's wrong?
      And, if someone comes back and say's: God say's it's wrong!  I say BULLSHIT.
      I believe people are born gay, parents or lifestyle don't make people gay.  Of course, there are
      people who experiment and are not truly gay.

15  Politics
     I hate them, they bore me, to be honest, it's all just confusing!!!

16. Pedicures
     Love how it looks after. During is like torture to me. I'm so ticklish I can barely handle it.

18.  Cooking
       This is huge for me! I HATE to cook!!!! I don't even pretend to like it. I cook what I have to for my kids. They will admit that Daddy's food is better than mine. It doesn't hurt my feelings either. I completely agree with them.

17. Tidbits of things I love.
     Mowing the yard (push mower)
     Taking naps
     Glazed donuts
     Vacuuming
     Folding towels
    Taking a hot shower
    Being the last one to go to bed at night.


Well, I hope you all enjoyed reading and getting to know me a bit.
Andrew want's me to play Spiderman with him, so I have to go and be the bad guy.

Thanks for reading
xoxo

A very unusual evening

I must share, that this evening I was able to take a hot, relaxing bath all by myself.
I have to admit, I did get a visit from both kids at the beginning.

"Mommy, I wanna feel your water."

"Mommy, what's that white stuff all over your legs.

Before I could answer those questions, Chris came in and swept them both away.

"Can you please give Mommy 10 minutes by herself?"

And guess what!

It worked, he handled it without me!  And with minimal crying from Andrew.

It was the best 10 minutes I've had all week.

Now, I'm relaxed, smooth and smelling like a field full of flowers.

Thanks for reading... Have a great weekend.

xoxo