I don't want my very much loved readers to think, all I do is bitch.
I really don't! Well, don't ask Chris that question he will probably say I do. But that's only because a lot of men think when a woman opens their mouth it's to bitch. But this post isn't about Chris. It's about me and my fucked up choices.
I feel like I've made some horrible mistakes in my life in the last three years. Yes, since Andrew came along. I don't regret for one second having him. He's is my rock sometimes. I just look at him and thank god he's in my life. Andrew and I have a special bond, that I didn't have with Emilie.
That's where I believe the choices I made for him are affecting me and my family now.
Some of you know the back story, I worked after Em was born. I decided not to when Andrew was born. I think maybe I should have went back to work, so I can help my family with money and things we need. But, if I did go back to work, I know I wouldn't have the bond I have with him now.
Does that even make sense? Well, it does in my head.
So there's possible mistake #1 - Quitting my job.
Mistake #2 - Selling our very reliable and paid off car.
We sold it and got another car plus cash back. Sounds like a great plan right??
WRONG!!!!
So, now I'm stuck at home, with no car. I can't even try to get a job, because I have no damn way to get there!!
I can't even work at night, because Chris' job is so un-predictiable.
That I believe are the 2 biggest mistakes I've made in the last three years.
I've looked for anything and everything that I could do from home and my computer. All freaking scams. I was accepted to write articles for a website.
Examiner.com - I write about Motherhood. I was very proud of myself. But, after written like 6 articles, I've made a total of $1.17!!! REALLY!!!
I'm done with that shit!
But, of course when I think things can't get any worse.
My cell phone dies.. So now I have no home phone, no cell phone!! WTF
No money to buy anything else. I have to sit outside, just to get an internet connection, so I can write my silly articles that seem to be a waste of time!
We're a month behind on rent, electricity, car payment and I have to figure out how to buy a week's worth of food for $60!!!
I guess it's time to start couponing again.
There is one good thing I don't want to leave out.
Today, we are getting our internet and home phone back up. Thanks to who will be our new roommate Amy! I seriously hope I didn't depress anyone with this post today. I hope that you look at this and thank god that you're not in my shoes.
If you want to help our poor family please call this #: 1-800-Fuckedup-Life.
Thanks for reading.
xoxo